E!What does Emily Goodhand look like?
That's the question Tori Spelling had been afraid to answer after Dean McDermott admitted to her that he'd had an affair in December 2013. In the second season premiere of Lifetime's True Tori, however, the former Beverly Hills, 90210 actress decided to face her fears and see the mysterious woman's face.
"Oh god, I'm devastated," Spelling said while looking at a photo of Goodhand in Us Weekly. The picture of Goodhand ran in the same issue that unearthed McDermott's infidelity. It was never published online.
"Am I a bitch if I say I think she's unattractive?" Spelling asked.
The reality star, who has four children with McDermott, said she had "no idea" what Goodhand looked like prior to leafing through the magazine. "In my mind she looks like an Amish woman from the 1800s," the former Mystery Girls star told a friend over lunch.
When Spelling, 41, talked to her therapist about finally putting a face to a name, she said, "I was completely blown away by what Emily looked like. I found her unattractive." Spelling had expected to see a sexpot and was thrown by Goodhand's average looks. "Before this, I would never have felt threatened by that girl.' I'd be like, 'My husband would never,' but now all bets are off," she explained.
"It could be anyone," she added.
Goodhand doesn't have an online presence, prompting some media outlets to question whether she even exists. But, as Spelling explained during the True Tori reunion special in June, "I wish she didn't exist. I wish it hadn't happened. I don't know who would fake something to have this to happen to your life. My family was, and still is, in complete devastation over this. I wouldn't wish this on anything."
True Tori airs Tuesdays at 9 p.m. on Lifetime.