Aaron Taylor-Johnson Bares His Butt in Flaunt, Opens Up About Adolescence: "I Thought I Was Stupid"

Why acting saved the star from himself

By Francesca Bacardi Jun 24, 2015 7:50 PMTags
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Aaron Taylor-Johnson is really baring it all!

He speaks candidly in Flaunt magazine, but the actor, who also happens to be married to Fifty Shades of Grey director Sam Taylor-Johnson, is also putting his body on display. Standing somewhere in the desert, Aaron lets it all hang out as he poses with low-cut pants and no shirt, all while he seemingly leading a group of three women.

But he wasn't necessarily born a leader. In fact, the actor admits that growing up was a little bit rough until he discovered acting, a passion that has never died. 

"[Growing up] I thought I was stupid, wasn't clever enough," he explains to the magazine. "I had really low self esteem, but when I started making films, and was around all these people in the film world, I felt empowered and I felt special. Not because I was an actor, not because of the fame from it. I felt like I finally had a voice. I was able to be openly and freely myself. I was allowed to cry and be emotional. I was allowed to yell and be as bold as I wanted."

Even though he knew he loved acting and figured out what he wanted to do with his life, he went back to school anyway. But he realized it wasn't for him so he dropped out at 15 and "never looked back."

He threw himself into trying to become a better actor, which led to him making some bad decisions.

"...I needed to draw upon true, real experiences. I needed to be able to fill my cup, I needed more knowledge and experience, so I just started to do it all. I worked hard, played hard, and had money to burn," he continues. "I got myself into some serious, crappy situations. My adolescence was all about wild exploring and experimentation, about doing and trying everything. Searching for what fit right."

Like everyone else who goes through adolescence, he says, "It's a struggle."

Aaron, who landed the role of Quicksilver in Avengers: Age of Ultron, credits his wife, who is 23 years his senior, with helping him overcome his "nomad kind-of-lifestyle."

"Second I met Sam, I knew I wanted to stop running, I just wanted to stay in the moment with her," he says. "And that's what it's been ever since then."